There are a lot of things in my life that I’d like to change if I could. If I could go back in time I would train my dog to have less separation anxiety. I would also work harder in school and try to eat healthier. Most importantly, I would have forced my father to go to the doctor more often.
However, being an avid science fiction fan, I know that time travel comes with a cost. If I alter the past, it would influence the present. After all, that’s kind of the point. But, there are a few special things that have happened in my life, which I would like to retain. Thus came “The Time Machine Test”. If something passes the test, it means that, in the event that I acquire a time travel device, I would put in every effort to ensure that it would still happen. The birth of my nephews is a good example. I would definitely want that to still happen. My experience in AmeriCorps is another one, specifically the friends I made. Making sure I was still friends with my best friend. Buying my dog. Those are all on the list. To be honest, my entire college experience is not. I had good times in college. It was not a bad experience for me. But I think I would do it all differently if I could.
Right now, I’m not sure if being in Korea would pass the test. I like teaching; I can’t imagine doing anything else right now. I enjoy my school and the few friends that I’ve made here. I do think that I would come to Korea in an alternative timeline. However, none of the specifics are all that important. I don’t think I would mind if my coworkers or school were different. I don’t feel like I’ve made any lasting connections here.
This is all my fault of course. Almost all of the things that I would change in the time machine scenario are my fault. I haven’t really tried to make more friends or do anything interesting in Korea. I clearly don’t study enough Korean, even though I talk about doing it all the time. So, I’m not really sure why I am posting this, other than to say that I would like being in Korea to pass the test. I have another seven months on my current contract and at this point, I am planning to re-sign for a third year. I don’t want all that time to be a waste.
So, I guess I’ll be trying a bit harder.
I would also like to point out that last night I had a dream that I was reading Tumblr. Specifically, I was re-reading this post by Sonia. Now, I love tumblr and what Sonia said in the post. However, dreams about tumblr are just not top notch. I could be dreaming about flying or… ok, right now I can’t think of any interesting dream ideas. And that is sad. Just… sad.
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